Sunday, October 4, 2009

The latest news

So we're 32 weeks now. Vance is measuring nearly 5 lbs.  Doing wonderfully!  Everything is looking good so far.  His breathing, weight, movement. I'm really happy with how things have been going. He's a bit less active since she doesn't have much room. He's been head down for a while and is putting tons of pressure on me how.  We're still at risk for early labor and since they have now noticed changes in my cervix they are watching it even more.  Starting with weekly exams, non-stress tests (the ones I asked for) along with his monthly ultrasounds and a follow up with the Cardiologist on this Friday.  I am pretty nervous about it.  Vu has been working a ton of overtime and won't be able to go with me.  That makes me pretty scared.  I don't want to deal with any bad news alone.  I guess even if the news is the same as before I'm going to have a hard time dealing with that.  I didn't get too distraught the first time but I think that was only because I had researched so much before hand that I knew most of what she was going to tell us anyway.  This time is different I guess.  It's the last time they are going to look at his heart before he's born, so It's the final say.  It being the end or what feels like the end of hope for a change.  Maybe I am clinging to hope but I keep telling myself maybe they were wrong about the down syndrome.  I'm going to be waiting until he is born to see for myself. I pray that is the case. Please let them be wrong so we can do what we need to for his heart.