I hope I am not too depressing for everyone else when I write these blogs but this is my outlet. I see too many doctors to have time to see a therapists, so this is my therapy. I've asked over and over again for a new anti-depressant only to find each one that is prescribed for me if harmful to Vance, so I think I've given up asking. Especially with the last one. I read the pamphlet that came form the pharmacy only to find it can cause him to have seizures!! So I am doing what I can to keep myself under control. Not easy for me since I already suffered from depression before I ever got pregnant. Then throw in hormones and a poor prenatal diagnosis which all add fuel to my fire. So I struggle but Vu is the main one suffering trying to figure out how to deal with me when I hit a bad spot.